Today I successfully took Gary to work and back with no issues however this morning while getting ready I had realized Gary's top leaves are getting a little brown.. not all just about 4. I had recently misted Gary but I haven't earned a solid watering for about 2-3 days now. I'm a little nervous but again Gary shows me up and is the least bit concerned. Its almost as if He knows that from time to time his leaves are going to get brown; that its a natural part of reduction to feel a little pain. Today I had to learn to pull from the soil and quite frankly its horrible. Soil is tasteless, and arguably bland however meets the needs of Gary and therefore seemingly meets the needs of me. Now let me clarify a bit here, I'm not "EATING" real dirt however I'm processing myself spiritually to pull from an energy source beyond my pie hole. As I was sharing with a friend today there was a situation when I was younger say about 15 in which I truly felt physical hunger so bad that it made me almost regurgitate, it spooked me and I swore to myself I would never allow myself to get to that point again. So in retrospect I've done an overly good job at keeping myself physically fed but far from spiritually fed. The world states that as long as your stomach is full, and your pockets are full you're doing pretty good. The reality is is that I'm finding it how truly blasphemous it is to live a life through your stomach, to horde for no particular reason. To be ok with God giving you on demand vs storing constantly or at least being obsessed with storing. Gary has taught me that he pulls in every ray and every drop on demand and stores very little... that's why he's susceptible to drought.. and he's ok with that. Again its one thing to store for a long journey but I see that as more of a purpose driven storing with an approaching time line... in conclusion, I've learned that storing out of fear is the real enemy.
Thanks again Gary.
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Don't forget that being a good stewart is being wise. There is a balance to be maintained. Having enough for yourself and being able to help others is a good thing. Having alot for just yourself is another thing.
ReplyDeleteThere's a lot of wisdom here! :D And Cathy is right it's all about balance. Too far in one direction or the other isn't good. But I'm glad you and Gary are bonding! ;)
ReplyDeleteI am glad your bonding also and also that you can draw from a past experience to learn a lesson from that worthless plant exercise. Thanks for being open and honest. Now the question is what will you do with it long term. Perhaps this fast will trigger more than you think. You may water your plant TODAY only.
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